I’ll never forget the time I found out that there was no such thing as Santa. It’s a moment frozen in time for me and I can still remember exactly how I felt when I heard the devastating news.
The year was 1984 and I was in the 4th grade at Parkview Elementary School. I was playing with my friends at recess outside at some point during the month of November when somehow we got onto the topic of Christmas and Santa. I’d been telling my friends about a Cabbage Patch Kid (yes, I totally just dated myself there) that I was hoping Santa would bring me.
so-called friend Shawna Hurley looked me dead in the eye and said “you know there is no such thing as santa, right. It’s really your mom”. Everything after that was a blur. I was horrified, sad, disappointed and I remember feeling embarrassed that I seemed to be the last one to know. It was just like one of those moments like you see on tv where I was left standing there while everything in the background and all the people in it just sort of faded away.
I was a walker to and from school and the school was literally right up the street from my house, so I ran home that day and as much as I was hoping that it wasn’t true, my mom sadly confirmed that it was. She swore me to secrecy because my sister & brother were younger and still believed. I think she tried to make me feel better by trying to convince me that sharing this secret was somehow special, but I wasn’t buying it.
Now my children are experiencing the magic and I just hope that some rotten 4th grader doesn’t burst their bubble like Shawna did to me.
It’s funny, because I saw her at our 10 year reunion and and after talking to her for a few minutes, I told her she was the one that ruined Christmas for me and she gave me the exact same look as she did back when we were in the 4th grade. She looked at me like I was completely off my rocker.
Oh, and for the record….I got the Cabbage Patch Doll that I wanted that year. His name was Wade Xavier and I’m really not sure why I remember that.
Were any of you guys as crushed as I was when you found out that there was no Santa?